Life got rougher trying to make on my own. I reached out to a friend. An old friend. Not really expecting anything. What I received in return was complete support and compassion. Someone who stepped up to the plate to help me and the kids. Keep us safe and happy. Honestly it takes a special kind of person to take on someone else's burdens and trials He did it with a smile on his face ..never wavering in his support. A bachelor willing to give his all to a single mom with two kids, one with aspergers syndrome. What kind of person does this? Not anyone I could have ever imagined . I honestly don't deserve all the blessings he has given me. I feel whole again. Part of something bigger. I felt invisible for years. Now I smile everyday. I think I know my purpose now. Someday I will help women who were in my situation. I want to give back what I have given. Thank you. You know who you are..
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Blessings
This blog will most likely be deleted but I if you know me then you know I'm not too good at keeping my emotions in... Life was hard , the details are unimportant at this time.. I moved to Tx .
Dec 2011
Dear T & K
It's been a long time since I posted. Life can get crazy at times, especially with moving, new schools, holidays...the list goes on.. You both have started new schools. Kallyn you are sailing right through making new friends and loving it. Tommy you are struggling a bit more. It's been such a tough year for you. I hate that so much. You are such a brilliant kid. My math super genius. Your amazing in so many ways, that you just don't realize yet. I am so very proud of you.
We are all rebuilding our lives and it's not been easy. But we love each other and that is what is most important. It's good to feel alive again.. I know that time and love heals everything. Life is certainly back on track for us all. I love you more everyday! Mom
Thursday, September 1, 2011
My special girl
Dear K,
You are turning 6 in two days!!! Wow ..that was so quick... I love you so much...I am going to tell you what I do every year when your birthday arrives..You see, you were born during Hurricane Katrina..it was a horribly tragic time..So many people were lost.. I can't help but think of all those babies that were born in that area during that time who did make it through..So every year on your birthday I pray for those babies and their families and I thank God cause I am lucky to have you..
You bring so much fun into my life.. You are so easy going.. I love that... Your my special girl..my angel... So proud of you, handling everything that comes your way with courage and confidence.. I actually need to be more like you.. I love the way you take care of everybody around you.. I just comes naturally to you.. I love your beautiful soul Kallyn.. Always remember that I love you today and I will love you even more tomorrow. Mom
You are turning 6 in two days!!! Wow ..that was so quick... I love you so much...I am going to tell you what I do every year when your birthday arrives..You see, you were born during Hurricane Katrina..it was a horribly tragic time..So many people were lost.. I can't help but think of all those babies that were born in that area during that time who did make it through..So every year on your birthday I pray for those babies and their families and I thank God cause I am lucky to have you..
You bring so much fun into my life.. You are so easy going.. I love that... Your my special girl..my angel... So proud of you, handling everything that comes your way with courage and confidence.. I actually need to be more like you.. I love the way you take care of everybody around you.. I just comes naturally to you.. I love your beautiful soul Kallyn.. Always remember that I love you today and I will love you even more tomorrow. Mom
Friday, August 12, 2011
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Dear K,
I can not believe you will be turning six in a few weeks AND starting Kindergarten next week. Time really flew..I want those years back..I love you more then anything..I will miss taking you to work with me everyday..I will feel empty..lost without you singing songs in the back of my car as we drive to work...butting into my cell phone conversations as I drive...I love you more and more everyday and will love you even more tomorrow. my love..my Kallalilly...
Saturday, July 30, 2011
A Whole New World
Dear T & K,
This is the hardest blog ever....Life has changed. Your dad and I are no longer married. We are on our own in our place near the cemetery in Wylie..Hope when you read this someday you can look back on this with good memories. Hope you look back and say it was a hard time but we made it. Hope you look back and say wow my parents really love me. Nothing that you did caused the marriage to end. After 16 years things changed.. Times were tough and feelings changed. it's not ugly.. we are still a united front working together to parent you. You are loved more then you know. Communication is good and really life is good- we laugh, we struggle, but we got this...cause we got each other.. we have friends and we are loved and that's all we need right now...love you...
This is the hardest blog ever....Life has changed. Your dad and I are no longer married. We are on our own in our place near the cemetery in Wylie..Hope when you read this someday you can look back on this with good memories. Hope you look back and say it was a hard time but we made it. Hope you look back and say wow my parents really love me. Nothing that you did caused the marriage to end. After 16 years things changed.. Times were tough and feelings changed. it's not ugly.. we are still a united front working together to parent you. You are loved more then you know. Communication is good and really life is good- we laugh, we struggle, but we got this...cause we got each other.. we have friends and we are loved and that's all we need right now...love you...
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Jeanne & Harry
Jeanne and Harry- your great grandparents..wow, the stories I have to tell you..lol
I spent my years growing up living in their home. They were the funniest people I ever met. Jeanne had quite the sense of humor and was known to tell a dirty joke or two, although if you saw her sitting in the pew at First Baptist you would think she was an angel. She was quite a gem, with sparkling eyes and a big smile. She was actually the bread winner in their family for many years after Harry retired. She worked very hard for GMAC and loved it. She died my senior year of high school in 1992 , shortly after our house burned down. That was a really hard time. I will share my biggest regret in life.. the last words I said to her.. I was getting ready to leave and she was staring blankly at my face,I was kind of annoyed at this and asked harshly why are you staring at me..after repeating this, she snapped out of her little 'trance' which was actually a mini stroke- and said because your so pretty. I left a few minutes later and with in the hour she went into a coma..I can't write this without crying..I really wish she was here to meet you guys, to help me through this divorce, to make us laugh...
As for Harry,
I just can't help but smile when I think of him..he became crippled as a child and forced to quit school in the 6th grade..yet he helped me with all my college math.. He was amazing. He was literally the arm chair general in the first Gulf war..watching the news ..monitoring all his troops. I remember going in everyday after school to get an update on the battle.. Even when I was in college, I used to curl up in his lap in his recliner. He passed away in September of 1999. Tommy, you were born just two months later. I was so sad he never got to meet you. He was so super excited at my baby shower that June. You are the first grandchild in our family..and well, the first boy for him..he only had a daughter, and me and my sisters for grand kids. He bought your stroller and car seat. That meant so very much to me..I have a million stories to tell and lots of time to tell them... Remember family is important, really they are all you got. I love you T & K. so proud of you. We are weathering this storm so well together..
I spent my years growing up living in their home. They were the funniest people I ever met. Jeanne had quite the sense of humor and was known to tell a dirty joke or two, although if you saw her sitting in the pew at First Baptist you would think she was an angel. She was quite a gem, with sparkling eyes and a big smile. She was actually the bread winner in their family for many years after Harry retired. She worked very hard for GMAC and loved it. She died my senior year of high school in 1992 , shortly after our house burned down. That was a really hard time. I will share my biggest regret in life.. the last words I said to her.. I was getting ready to leave and she was staring blankly at my face,I was kind of annoyed at this and asked harshly why are you staring at me..after repeating this, she snapped out of her little 'trance' which was actually a mini stroke- and said because your so pretty. I left a few minutes later and with in the hour she went into a coma..I can't write this without crying..I really wish she was here to meet you guys, to help me through this divorce, to make us laugh...
As for Harry,
I just can't help but smile when I think of him..he became crippled as a child and forced to quit school in the 6th grade..yet he helped me with all my college math.. He was amazing. He was literally the arm chair general in the first Gulf war..watching the news ..monitoring all his troops. I remember going in everyday after school to get an update on the battle.. Even when I was in college, I used to curl up in his lap in his recliner. He passed away in September of 1999. Tommy, you were born just two months later. I was so sad he never got to meet you. He was so super excited at my baby shower that June. You are the first grandchild in our family..and well, the first boy for him..he only had a daughter, and me and my sisters for grand kids. He bought your stroller and car seat. That meant so very much to me..I have a million stories to tell and lots of time to tell them... Remember family is important, really they are all you got. I love you T & K. so proud of you. We are weathering this storm so well together..
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Legacy
Dear T & K, I saw this little poem the other day and thought of you. I am so lucky to have you two.
Legacy
You are my legacy.
My whole world revolves around you,
everything you are and will some day be.
Everything I do, every decision I make
is made with you in mind.
You are precious, important and
worth everything.
You matter to me.
You are my mission.
The never ending dirty dishes
can't compare to my everlasting love.
The heaping piles of soiled laundry
cannot top the mountain of joy in my heart.
The constant daily discipline
and teaching are non negotiable.
You will one day appreciate.
You are brilliant.
You soak in the world around you
with such wonder and amazement.
Your strong body, creative mind and tender spirit
are growing right before me.
One day I will see the fruit of my labor
and you will become who God made you
Legacy
You are my legacy.
My whole world revolves around you,
everything you are and will some day be.
Everything I do, every decision I make
is made with you in mind.
You are precious, important and
worth everything.
You matter to me.
You are my mission.
The never ending dirty dishes
can't compare to my everlasting love.
The heaping piles of soiled laundry
cannot top the mountain of joy in my heart.
The constant daily discipline
and teaching are non negotiable.
You will one day appreciate.
You are brilliant.
You soak in the world around you
with such wonder and amazement.
Your strong body, creative mind and tender spirit
are growing right before me.
One day I will see the fruit of my labor
and you will become who God made you
Friday, February 4, 2011
A kind and gentle soul
Dear Kallyn,
I stayed awake last night thinking about life. My blessings, what the future holds, and the gifts I have in life. I thought of your beautiful selfless soul. You are so amazingly kind and unselfish. I love you so much. I keep wondering with all my flaws how was I lucky enough to have you. I smile when I think of the way, even on my worst day, you say " mommy you are so beautiful to me". The way you pat my head when I cuddle beside you. I remember when your brother got his favorite toy taken away. You sat on the floor and cried and cried because you wanted him to get his toy back. The way you unselfishly want to give away your toys to friends. The way when you see a baby you say Aww and smile. You heart is so big. Your soul is so beautiful. It is amazing how I can love you a little more each and everyday. I am truly blessed to have my Kallyn Kathleen. You and your brother have taught all about unconditional love.
I stayed awake last night thinking about life. My blessings, what the future holds, and the gifts I have in life. I thought of your beautiful selfless soul. You are so amazingly kind and unselfish. I love you so much. I keep wondering with all my flaws how was I lucky enough to have you. I smile when I think of the way, even on my worst day, you say " mommy you are so beautiful to me". The way you pat my head when I cuddle beside you. I remember when your brother got his favorite toy taken away. You sat on the floor and cried and cried because you wanted him to get his toy back. The way you unselfishly want to give away your toys to friends. The way when you see a baby you say Aww and smile. You heart is so big. Your soul is so beautiful. It is amazing how I can love you a little more each and everyday. I am truly blessed to have my Kallyn Kathleen. You and your brother have taught all about unconditional love.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Dear Tommy & Kallyn
2010 is now finished. It was a year of learning for sure. All and all it was a good year!
It has got me thinking of old friends. I really miss them. It's hard to leave people behind. Some people promise to keep in touch, some follow through and some don't.
I think God places people in your life for a reason. Some stay for life, some stay for only a season. ( Thanks to my beautiful friend Johnna for this piece of wisdom)
Looking back I have not always been a good friend to people. I have made those promises to stay in touch and failed myself. It is always important to be a good friend. As I get older I realize the importance of friends. When I was younger, I put my friendships on the back burner because I was more interested in spending time with my boyfriends. I regret this very much. I think I missed out on alot.
Sadly.there will also be people who you are a friend to but they not your friend. Sounds confusing but you will understand as you grow older.
No matter what always remember to always judge your friends on what is in the inside and not the outside.
I love you guys and I am very proud of who you are! Everyday is a blessing!
2010 is now finished. It was a year of learning for sure. All and all it was a good year!
It has got me thinking of old friends. I really miss them. It's hard to leave people behind. Some people promise to keep in touch, some follow through and some don't.
I think God places people in your life for a reason. Some stay for life, some stay for only a season. ( Thanks to my beautiful friend Johnna for this piece of wisdom)
Looking back I have not always been a good friend to people. I have made those promises to stay in touch and failed myself. It is always important to be a good friend. As I get older I realize the importance of friends. When I was younger, I put my friendships on the back burner because I was more interested in spending time with my boyfriends. I regret this very much. I think I missed out on alot.
Sadly.there will also be people who you are a friend to but they not your friend. Sounds confusing but you will understand as you grow older.
No matter what always remember to always judge your friends on what is in the inside and not the outside.
I love you guys and I am very proud of who you are! Everyday is a blessing!
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